Life

Looking at life from a dual perspective is very important. It helps you not to be a selfish, self centered individual.Its been difficult for me though. Thus despite all my efforts towards being a
good individual I guess this one big flaw has coloured my several attempts to be the perfect kid.
I like my life to be painted with my colours,one for every emotion. Blue when I am calm, green when i am contemplative, red when I am passionate,golden when I am spiritual, purple when I am angry,black when I am sad and white when I am drifting. Its very unsettling when the picture I paint is less than perfect.
Every individual has a world of thoughts and beliefs from which he keeps on borrowing a shade or two. Most of the time these shades dominate his landscape giving character to the potrait.
A attempt to blend colours which dont come from the deep reserve within ends up in a creation that is not truthful, its a lie that is drapped with brushes of paint and left to dry. But today or tommorrow when the paint starts to peal the truth stands out exposed and vulnerable.
Living your dream versus living in reality. Its a dilema that is a part of each human beings everyday struggle. TO BE OR NOT TO BE. Thats the question. Happiness is not only about our dreams its about living others. The satisfaction that you get when you see the person for whom you have made surreal real is something that cannot be matched by the gladness of your heart when u live only for yourself.
Every Individual knows this, the effort is to try and find the conviction to bring it into functionality. Usually the only motivating factor that works is love. A emotion above all and is all.
I could have claimed to have understood the emotion. But as you cannot fathom the wisdom of god. Love is a puzzle that you cannot solve. It exists yet it doesent ,now you can feel it now it disappears. life is consistent it flows like river on a plain.Without any hurdles,without any obstruction.It meanders silently covering a mile at a time. Sometimes the skies darken and the winds blow hard, then it quivers uncomfortable with the sudden change in its everyday frabic.The storm comes and storm goes, life resumes its usual routine.
There is no place for anything volatile in a common mans life. There has to be a consistent thread that keeps the whole fabric togther. Sometimes you have to compromise on your colours,
a shade darker or a shade lighter will have to do. As long as the weave is even and soothing to the eye, life has to be seen as a larger picture not as a matter of a colour or two.