As I was coming home I got a call from my aunt,somebody was in trouble.Here is the story;
She is a principal and a parent was in trouble.The father is a poor man working for a golf club,he was told to deliver golf clubs worth 2 lakhs to a address,he cant read or write therefore on the way he steps down from the cab to ask for directions and the cab driver zooms off with the loot.
The poor man has lost his job and has been threatened with a case.The police have been nice enough to not register a complaint against him but have expressed their inability to track the cab down. I often wonder why god tests the most helpless, the only earning member of the family and even the paltry earnings have been stopped. At a point in life when i am moping about the sorry state of affairs of my life (a stuck career graph and relationship) that call has made me realise that how blessed I am to have a life that is flowing as smooth as a still sea.For
once I am thankful for the stillness,for it is much better than a upheavel so traumatic as above.
Friday, April 28, 2006
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Prose and Poetry
19/4/2006 APRIL
ON LOVE
Khalil Gibran
Then said Almitra, "Speak to us of Love."
And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said:
When love beckons to you follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.
All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.
But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.
When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.
ON LOVE
Khalil Gibran
Then said Almitra, "Speak to us of Love."
And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said:
When love beckons to you follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.
All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.
But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.
When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.
love always has been a integral part of my life i guess this stands true not only to my life but for every living creature on this planet.
"God so loved his people that he gave his only beloved son."
There is no expression of love greater than this.I can say that i have been in love.True love.I have smiled,I have cried,I have laughed and I have sighed and above all i have forgiven.Love is all the above.Its a fire in which you want to immolate yourself again and again because the cold that will seep into your bones will be unberable for you.The coldness that loneliness brings to you the hoplessness of life and the nightmare of living life a lone wanderer.But then love is a mystic its god who touches you through a emotion which you have no control on.I have tried trust me I have and have lost.Love brings you closer to god though the object is a common man. It takes you to a level of humanity that you never thought existed it makes you the human being that he envisioned you as at the beggining of time.
I wander again in a wildnerness where i seek that which i have lost.I Dont hate him becasue i know its not him that i yearn for i yearn for God, I yearn to be what he wants me to be his child in the truest sense of the word.
Monday, April 17, 2006
Me,my work and my boyfriend
20/4/2006
I am so bored right now!i dont know why life is a full circle professionally and persoanlly
work has being my passion i guess a samll time program co ordiantor cannot weild the power
to transform...........i hate it i have realised how important it is to have the freedom to think and put the thought to action.just realised how wrong was the choice in life....hope the right choice
comes along.. Ego is always the mans prorogative.Sad but true
19/4/2006 april
Work has not improved and boyfriend ahs not improved either.yesterday i was left thinking if it was my fault as he said..A night of accusations and a morning of mourning,eight years have passed this has been the way of life but everytime i guess both hima nd me have found the strenght to go on.I doubt this time becasue
yesterday he said something i had been doubting for the longest time ever......if i meet somebody who understands me i will marry her that instant( this after i have been insisting on a clarity of marriage for the longest time possible).I am a compromsie that i know i guess so is he but i have never treated him as one.whereas all this while i have been.I guess for the million times i have thought it has ended i guess this time it is for sure.He will be going to hyderabad and geography will play the role that psychology was trying to do for a long time :)
My Comments today................................
okay yet another day and i have to still figure out my life....i am so fed up of it....the boss is once again yelling and screaming for reasons i am sure he has and if he does not then who is he anyways answerable to.i ahve come to believe that it does not help being a principaled individual it does not get u anywhere but surely can get you shot.being nice and undersatnding to boyfriend who ahs figured out life as ur side and my side and no stepping into my territory...reminded me of school days this is my side of the desk that is yours and dont come on my side hump.why do i ahve to tolerate this god knows.the whole worlds immaturity ahs to fall in my lap.damn and i thought last weekend that i was ready for marriage can u beleive it rather he was ready for marriage but alas. the person who said that women are difficult to undesratnd should date my boyfriend.
2:10 AM
madsnow said...
MY CURRENT STATUSWell i dont know if i should be so mad and i seriously need to figure out this edit stuff.anywyas i need to do something constructive with my life i am agian where i began...at nothing....i have a feeling that i will never be able to get that much deserved break....i am so unhappy right now....making calls and begging people to come on weird shows.for beginning it wasnt bad at all and i liked doing it too but right now after spneding 3 years in news is getting a tad frustrating specially when i know i have the grey cells to do something more constructive.to top it all i have a 10 year old boyfriend to deal with who thinks that being concerned is returning a call abck and asking where are you.(god) i msut have been a sinner in my last janan..... damn i mena how difficult its is to care for somebody or perhaps i am digging for gold where none exists.how can anybody be so self centered yaar...i cannot afll sick and even if i ahev then its not a big deal......i cannot ahve my days of downhill because i have tod ela with them but if bf the great is having a mood upset i should Control my pms and give a shoulder to cry on.
madsnow said...
the last time i wrote something it disaperaed so am damn bored right now to repeat it.....but in prescie style(i know i have spelled it wrong) am totally mindF*****.well ajay my exboyfriend was a asshole later on but what ever time we dated he had a amazing chill effect yaar like he could read my mind and though he didnt move the earth and moon to make a difference to my life somehow i knew he could.i know i sould kill myself to even think like this when i am contemplating marriage which i am not so sure about right now... but who said life was a straight line its screwed even more then a jalebi
5:20 AM
I am so bored right now!i dont know why life is a full circle professionally and persoanlly
work has being my passion i guess a samll time program co ordiantor cannot weild the power
to transform...........i hate it i have realised how important it is to have the freedom to think and put the thought to action.just realised how wrong was the choice in life....hope the right choice
comes along.. Ego is always the mans prorogative.Sad but true
19/4/2006 april
Work has not improved and boyfriend ahs not improved either.yesterday i was left thinking if it was my fault as he said..A night of accusations and a morning of mourning,eight years have passed this has been the way of life but everytime i guess both hima nd me have found the strenght to go on.I doubt this time becasue
yesterday he said something i had been doubting for the longest time ever......if i meet somebody who understands me i will marry her that instant( this after i have been insisting on a clarity of marriage for the longest time possible).I am a compromsie that i know i guess so is he but i have never treated him as one.whereas all this while i have been.I guess for the million times i have thought it has ended i guess this time it is for sure.He will be going to hyderabad and geography will play the role that psychology was trying to do for a long time :)
My Comments today................................
okay yet another day and i have to still figure out my life....i am so fed up of it....the boss is once again yelling and screaming for reasons i am sure he has and if he does not then who is he anyways answerable to.i ahve come to believe that it does not help being a principaled individual it does not get u anywhere but surely can get you shot.being nice and undersatnding to boyfriend who ahs figured out life as ur side and my side and no stepping into my territory...reminded me of school days this is my side of the desk that is yours and dont come on my side hump.why do i ahve to tolerate this god knows.the whole worlds immaturity ahs to fall in my lap.damn and i thought last weekend that i was ready for marriage can u beleive it rather he was ready for marriage but alas. the person who said that women are difficult to undesratnd should date my boyfriend.
2:10 AM
madsnow said...
MY CURRENT STATUSWell i dont know if i should be so mad and i seriously need to figure out this edit stuff.anywyas i need to do something constructive with my life i am agian where i began...at nothing....i have a feeling that i will never be able to get that much deserved break....i am so unhappy right now....making calls and begging people to come on weird shows.for beginning it wasnt bad at all and i liked doing it too but right now after spneding 3 years in news is getting a tad frustrating specially when i know i have the grey cells to do something more constructive.to top it all i have a 10 year old boyfriend to deal with who thinks that being concerned is returning a call abck and asking where are you.(god) i msut have been a sinner in my last janan..... damn i mena how difficult its is to care for somebody or perhaps i am digging for gold where none exists.how can anybody be so self centered yaar...i cannot afll sick and even if i ahev then its not a big deal......i cannot ahve my days of downhill because i have tod ela with them but if bf the great is having a mood upset i should Control my pms and give a shoulder to cry on.
madsnow said...
the last time i wrote something it disaperaed so am damn bored right now to repeat it.....but in prescie style(i know i have spelled it wrong) am totally mindF*****.well ajay my exboyfriend was a asshole later on but what ever time we dated he had a amazing chill effect yaar like he could read my mind and though he didnt move the earth and moon to make a difference to my life somehow i knew he could.i know i sould kill myself to even think like this when i am contemplating marriage which i am not so sure about right now... but who said life was a straight line its screwed even more then a jalebi
5:20 AM
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