Me,my work and my boyfriend

20/4/2006
I am so bored right now!i dont know why life is a full circle professionally and persoanlly
work has being my passion i guess a samll time program co ordiantor cannot weild the power
to transform...........i hate it i have realised how important it is to have the freedom to think and put the thought to action.just realised how wrong was the choice in life....hope the right choice
comes along.. Ego is always the mans prorogative.Sad but true


19/4/2006 april
Work has not improved and boyfriend ahs not improved either.yesterday i was left thinking if it was my fault as he said..A night of accusations and a morning of mourning,eight years have passed this has been the way of life but everytime i guess both hima nd me have found the strenght to go on.I doubt this time becasue
yesterday he said something i had been doubting for the longest time ever......if i meet somebody who understands me i will marry her that instant( this after i have been insisting on a clarity of marriage for the longest time possible).I am a compromsie that i know i guess so is he but i have never treated him as one.whereas all this while i have been.I guess for the million times i have thought it has ended i guess this time it is for sure.He will be going to hyderabad and geography will play the role that psychology was trying to do for a long time :)


My Comments today................................

okay yet another day and i have to still figure out my life....i am so fed up of it....the boss is once again yelling and screaming for reasons i am sure he has and if he does not then who is he anyways answerable to.i ahve come to believe that it does not help being a principaled individual it does not get u anywhere but surely can get you shot.being nice and undersatnding to boyfriend who ahs figured out life as ur side and my side and no stepping into my territory...reminded me of school days this is my side of the desk that is yours and dont come on my side hump.why do i ahve to tolerate this god knows.the whole worlds immaturity ahs to fall in my lap.damn and i thought last weekend that i was ready for marriage can u beleive it rather he was ready for marriage but alas. the person who said that women are difficult to undesratnd should date my boyfriend.
2:10 AM
madsnow said...
MY CURRENT STATUSWell i dont know if i should be so mad and i seriously need to figure out this edit stuff.anywyas i need to do something constructive with my life i am agian where i began...at nothing....i have a feeling that i will never be able to get that much deserved break....i am so unhappy right now....making calls and begging people to come on weird shows.for beginning it wasnt bad at all and i liked doing it too but right now after spneding 3 years in news is getting a tad frustrating specially when i know i have the grey cells to do something more constructive.to top it all i have a 10 year old boyfriend to deal with who thinks that being concerned is returning a call abck and asking where are you.(god) i msut have been a sinner in my last janan..... damn i mena how difficult its is to care for somebody or perhaps i am digging for gold where none exists.how can anybody be so self centered yaar...i cannot afll sick and even if i ahev then its not a big deal......i cannot ahve my days of downhill because i have tod ela with them but if bf the great is having a mood upset i should Control my pms and give a shoulder to cry on.
madsnow said...
the last time i wrote something it disaperaed so am damn bored right now to repeat it.....but in prescie style(i know i have spelled it wrong) am totally mindF*****.well ajay my exboyfriend was a asshole later on but what ever time we dated he had a amazing chill effect yaar like he could read my mind and though he didnt move the earth and moon to make a difference to my life somehow i knew he could.i know i sould kill myself to even think like this when i am contemplating marriage which i am not so sure about right now... but who said life was a straight line its screwed even more then a jalebi
5:20 AM