The new age

I wonder if I had married the Mr Big a longtime ago keeping in consideration the fact that we
had been dating for the past ten years would he be a different man. Well some thought and the
answer is no men dont change. What about women do they ? well the answer is yet again no.
Not the women of the 2oth century. Who to blame I guess the mother. As society evolved from the highly patriachal where all the love and adoration was only for the male species to a society
of equals. Children were loved no matter the sex which is a brilliant phenomena. Mothers did not brain wash their daughters into not having a personality and into non questionable submission to men. There were more choices for women and more liberty alas the men are stuck with the same old choices and freedom without much expansion or evolvement alas mothers when it comes to their sons are still stuck with the perfect bahu syndrome which gets transfered to their perfect sons. The Indian man of today is still stuck in a world of obedient wifes and almost nonexistent audio levels wherein a non alcoholic,fidel and well earning husband were the only expecations that a woman had from a man.
Today as women fight it out in the boardroom and slug it out in the trains, bread on the table is already taken care of alongwith the bottle of expensive wine. Men clean as fresh laundry and with a eight figure salary find themselves still single and women not ready to mingle. Maybe for one second maybe they need to stop and think. Maybe mommy was wrong the expecations have changed. Its no more food on the table and assurity of a not kissed husabnd but the assurity of a
man who will remember the TLC (total love and care) during a bad PMS, drive down with flowers on a day of total madness at work, remember your favourite dish at a particular restaurant or plain just hug you just after you have thrown a fit at him and god knows what else.
A man of today is about sharing a womans space and making her comforatble in their own.
I guess its time that mothers begin raising boys to be men of understanding its no longer a role
of provider but that of a sharer a role which demands doing all that and a little more. Because
you have a partner who has raised the stakes high and there are going to be no compromises or sacrifice.

The spell

Crossed over the rainbow to a blue lagoon,
looked at my reflection and sudenly ws marooned,
a crsytal ball of desire blocking my freedom loomed,
encircled my being and left my heart full of doom,
every tommorrow I could see extremely clear,
the deception of todays reality and tommorrows fear,
I tried snatching the now and lock it in forever,
looked at my fist and found never,
enclosed I tried to find a inroad to peace,
the will to live a lie in the disguise of a bitch,
time passed and and with it came complacency,
the sense of perfection the biggest mistake of self diplomacy,
then finally one day the prophecy came to pass,
I looked up at the swirling skies darkened by the cryptic spell amass,
In a moment perfection broke its spell and transformed itself into a imperfect dwell,
as splinters flew in every direction,
I smiled and looked at the divine existence,
opened my wrist and let it fly the hope that I was living by.

A Good bye

I never cease to amaze myself. After experiencing robbery for the first time in the middle of the freaking highway for the first time in my life, I found myself making a dash for the police station.Lodged a Fir and had a straightforward conversation with the police all this alone. I don't remember once my hand quivering or my eyes watering with emotion.I was sturdy as stone.Of course the trauma was there and the breathlessness nothing I could not deal with.
A phone conversation with Mr Big of my life and I am a bundle of nerves and tears. Amazing isn't it ! I must say that the fourteen Grand I lost were the most well spend of my life. The answer that I desperately wanted my heart to answer for the last ten years of my life was finally answered. Do I love him. The answer is yes :) I always knew it I guess just was too damn scared to admit. It was going to take away a lot from me a my whole personality how bad is that ! ask a Leo that !
I should have guessed every time I asked my heart for a excuse to go running back to a person I have always proclaimed that I did not love. There was never a tomorrow without nor now was ever complete. The wait of ten years came to a end with me facing my biggest fear my love which ever was and never proclaimed and his which was always a;ways proclaimed and never was.
Its terrible when you know the truth and live a lie.Ten years is a pretty longtime to be living one anyways :)
I know what live is sweetheart I guess now is the time for you to find it. What more deserving gift for my life than love !