Ray Of Hope

The desire to achieve exists in each and every living soul. The goal could vary across classes and genre.From poor to the rich, from the intelligent to the challenged,from a mother to a newly wed. Dreams are different but the passion of desire is the same. It is this driving force that makes us human a soft target to sin. Want is a need that makes life a struggle. It pushes man
to swing between the right and wrong. I have realised that this is the only existing thread through which life is weaved. Everytime I pick up the pen words seem to state this very fact.
Sometimes life starves you of the very thing that you think is the most basic.At that point of life
what do you do.Most of the time you disintegrate.The rock near the sea slowly breaks away beaten consistently by the gushing waves. Then we are fragile humanbeings made from soil and gifted the breath of life. Yet somewhere there is the desire to fight, there is hope that tommorrow will bring with it a new beginning a new sunrise. As paul Coelho aptly coins the term
warriors of light. Infact I will say we are warriors for that light. Our life is a ongoing struggle to walk towards it fighting aagainst the darkness that constantly tries to edge its way into our existance. But then comes a time when there is no energy left in you when hope itself deserts you and you are left with no option but to accept your fate.
They say that its a matter of those few seconds between winning and losing. I hate losing and life
has been a fight to win. But through every second of that struggle god has stood by me today he may have seem to have deserted you . Tommorrow is uncertain, today a lonely disaster. They say that when it gets very dark morning is just around the corner. This night refuses to passaway and with the prolonged darkness the ray of hope gets a little lost in the impending gloom, In that moment when all seems lost you find the strength to take that step that blooms into a leap of faith. In that second the whole of divinity resides.
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I WANT A GUN !

The horror stories that find their way in the media are always about random acts of violence. People killing other people just because they have access to a weapon, the thought behind the killing itself is always random. There is no logic; people who mass murder are pure crazy.

The Paris killings are a prime example of what mad men with a gun can do. Somehow anywhere in the world it is pretty easy to get a gun.

If a person wants to kill he will find the means and ways to do it.

The estimated total number of guns (both licit and illicit) held by civilians in India is 40,000,000¹

The estimated rate of private gun ownership (both licit and illicit) in India is 3.36 firearms per 100 people

Unlawfully held guns cannot be counted, but in India there are estimated to be 33,700,000

In a classification of the world's small, medium and major firearm manufacturers, India is ranked 'medium'

That is a bloody lot of guns. The gun dynamics of India is divided between North and then the rest. It is quite easy to get a gun in that part of our world. UP, Bihar, Haryana are gun trotting districts. So my question is if it is easy to get one there then its easy to bring it here.

In 2008 the number of people who died due to a gun in India were 6219

THERE IS A RAPE EVERY HALF AN HOUR IN INDIA

That makes me want a gun ! the gun control debate in the united states of America has been a ongoing saga for a very long time. Gun control to them is what religion is to us . A nerve which when hit right gets you votes.

The random killings which have been striking fear in the hearts of the till now gun friendly nation have been turned into a reason for stringent gun control the party who supports that is called the Democratic Party The party which is against stringent control is the republic party.

When a nation who rakes in quite a lot of money from making and selling guns is fighting for less Guns, does changing India’s stringent stand make sense ?

Guns in India are regulated by the Ministry of Home Affairs, Internal Security Division II. Implementation and enforcement is by state, territory, metropolitan and special-task police forces, all members of the Indian Police Service.³⁷

In India, the right to private gun ownership is not guaranteed by law

In India, civilians are not allowed to possess automatic firearms^40 41

In India, private possession of semi-automatic assault weapons is permitted under licence^40 4

In India, private possession of handguns (pistols and revolvers) is permitted under license, for target shooting and protection only, and only specific calibres are permitted, except 22LR, 12Bore and 315 and the ammunition that the army uses everything else is permissible subject to availability and practical limits.

Whether you can or not own a gun is decided by your local cops. One has to think twice before even going and talking to them. I don’t know how comfortable or how much money I would need to feed them to even obtain one.

Officially this is how you can get  gun in India

Submit an application in form 'A' with Rs. 5/- Court fees stamp to the local police station

The Police station makes an enquiry and submits the report to             the Zonal DCP in Commissionerates and SPs in districts. The applicants are then interviewed by the DCP or DM  (as the case may be). Once convinced, the licensing authority (CP or DM)issues the license. 

That is easier said than done.  Why cant we have like a proper government office for the same like the passport office considering that the documents needed to get a gun are those that are needed to get a passport. The police can verify if you are a killer or not later after the paper work is under process just like how the verify your existence before the goverment issues you a passport !

The hurdles that you have to jump to get a gun do not involve a psych evaluation.  It would be a great idea to make that compulsory. I mean if you have violent maniac tendencies who better to catch hold of that than a shrink who is better than a cop deciding solely whether you can get one or not.

I don’t need a automatic firing at a crazy speed gun, I need a one which can shoot a single bullet which would kill that asshole who thinks it is perfectly fine to rape.

If the government can’t fix this epidemic of rape at least they should help us protect our honor.

GDP, Per Capita and us - a thought by a rebellious non mather

The stock  market is a complex breathing living mechanism it decides the fate of a nation and its people living it. For a layman the logic is simple you buy at a low cost and sell at a high cost. The investment happens in a company who is producing a product and your fate gets tied to that company. If they are making money invariably you make money.The fact that a lot of people are making money means that the country these people live in is making money.

That is when our GDP which counts how much stuff we are producing with how much stuff is pretty good. Nobody talks about sale, I guess we just assume that if we are producing we are selling and even if we are selling to who exactly doesn't matter. If most of what we make is sold out of our country then how can we deduce that a majority of our country is earning enough when they are not buying.
The new government is brandishing a good report card with a 5.5 percent GDP that means we are doing good and the fact that the oil prices are falling and commodity prices are tagging along is painting a very good picture in the press.
Per Capita is the money that a average Indian earns currently it is 5729 ! And the average Indian is mostly male who supports a family of at least four !
Every day India loses 2000 farmers every day, 12 farmers die everyday and I am not going to get into the malnourished numbers.
Education, Sanitation, Electricity basic needs which lay barren in a growing India. Markets are making money and we are supposed to be happy, poetry, art , literature are bowing down to numbers, there is no value for quality rather there is no money for it.
The equation between the stock market and the health of a nation is difficult for me to understand.
Then again for a literature graduate who is not fond of the multiplication table equations are difficult to understand .
Anybody is welcome to provide a explanation will post it for all to read and understand !

Kal Ki Dahleez pe

एक नयी  शयम का नयासवेरा।
इस वक़्त की सचाई और आनेवाले कल की हक़ीक़त।
कुछ घण्टों मैं आज और कल एक लम्हे समृबारु होंगे।
एक शन मैं पिछला मिट जायेगा।
कल सिर्फ आस होगा ।
इस हक़ीक़त का हम जश्न मानते है
उस खुद्दा को कयनाद का वास्ता देते है।
की कल का नया दिन आज का दद्र्द मिटा दे और  ख़ुशी के कुछ गिरी हुई पंखुलिया
आमीन केह  कर छीपा दे. 

Yes I am a believer but not a Christian

Conversion and faith have nothing to do with each other this fact is known by every man of god. Faith is about finding the path to eternal peace and conversion is the path to a consolidated vote bank.

History leaves a trail of blood where religion has always been manipulated by custodians to win the seat of ultimate power. Those were the dark ages when the cloak of the unknown forced you to hold on to the embers of faith which was marauded by beings to create a deceiving entity called religion.

The  inquisition and the crusade were events in history where ignorance was used and abused in the name of  god an entity who was not seen or heard. Man is an intelligent being and finally years later one man fought against the tyranny and politics, he fought to release god out of the shackles of men and his protest led to a new identity the protestants who demanded that faith was not bound with dos and dont's god was free for all. Jesus was born a Jew and he died a Jew, he was the living truth that man with all his weaknesses could live a life of compassion, love and forgiveness.  

These protestants today form some of the most fanatic sects who shackle god in their mirage of dogma where their truth is the only truth and  there is no place for any other. The bible talks only about the truth, god says that I was I am and I will be. He wants you to be enlightened and educated and have the ability to understand his eternity. Caging him in reflections of human sense cannot do justice to his existence. 

Om is " Adi Anadi " without beginning or the end and embracing all that exists. The vedas do not describe the 330 million hindu gods which currently exist in hindu culture

Ekam Brahm, dvitiya naste neh na naste kinchna - There is only one god, not the second; not at all, not in the least bit - From Brahamasutra

"God is love" [Allahu muhibba] this is the very foundation of Islam the cornerstone of a religion which defines goodness and good deeds as the identity of their faith.

A true man of god knows the essence of faith which stands on love, forgiveness and respect. The fight for salvation which each book talks about is the fight with your inner demons. A truth conveniently forgotten and falsely interpreted.

God is your father, Mother, Mentor a belief which is standard in all religions. If that is the truth then in his great knowledge if he talks to his children in the language they understand, then who are we to say say that your parent is better than mine. He is one, the language he uses to talk to his children is different.

The increasing epidemic of Rape and Legislative reality

The world around me is changing, a society is fast waltzing down the path that leads you to the stone age and we have no other option but to wait and watch, We have a new party in power and one of the reasons that it finds itself seated at the helm is because we as a nation were fed up of living in fear as a woman or for our women.

Conviction rates in rape  have been swinging between 24 and 26 percent for the last few years. The percentages are a horrendous as the crime itself.  Progress has been tom tommed and the most important man in India poses with other important men of the world exhibiting to the nations the strength of young dynamic India. A great sight, we as a nation hope that the promises and hope that reflects in the form of legislation is not just a carrot to a starving nation but a road map that leads to the reality of a basic right such as safety

The Girls and Women (Prevention of Beastly and Barbarous Brutality, Rape, Teasing, Molestation, Stripping and Other Atrocities) Bill, 2013.     

The bill has been introduced in parliament on the seventh of July 2014 

it states that whoever,—

(a) commits beastly and barbarous brutality on a girl or woman, as the case

may be, shall be punished with death:

Provided that if the accused opts for voluntary surgical castration and pleads

before the trial court to reduce his sentence the trial court may reduce the sentence

to life imprisonment to remain in jail custody till the end of his life and no remission

shall be granted by the appropriate Government or any authority to such convict;

We are going in a tizzy demanding cabs to be banned because the man who raped a woman was a cab driver. Does that guarantee that another taxi driver will not ? The fact that a bill like this is tabled in parliament is great, The question is why has it not been passed yet ? 

Conviction for rape is complicated and jumps through a lot of hoops the maximum extent of penalty is twenty years or life. Does rape have to be life threatening and violent to warrent the death penalty isnt the fact enough that A MAN HAS RAPED A WOMAN enough.

Changing thought in society will take time till then fear needs to be instilled in men the fear of death and losing their manhood. It is only then perhaps  women in India will be able to live a life free from the ever present fear of rape and the trauma that they will have to suffer for life.

I wrote a book

Have been getting letters of regret my book is not interesting enough maybe. I though I would be devastated but surprisingly I am not. I wrote a book. Though I dont think I have it in me like all those prolific  writers out there who keep on writing one volume after the other. There is a sense of achievement and amazement which I shall carry to my grave. That perhaps is the magic of being a writer. At the end of it all, often you read what you write and wonder from where did the enchantment flow, how did they come together in that magic array. 

shayad.....

Kabhi itni shikayat nahin ki hogi,
jitni aj kar rahi hoon,
shyam ki thartharahat aur subah ki chipi hui chandni aj pehli baar dil
ko choo nahin payi,
Chalte chalte kahin galat mod pe chal di,
jo sahi lag raha tha achanak galat sidh hua hai,
peeche mud jaye ya phir sadak age chalke sahi disha pe le jayegi,
zindagi chal rahi hai, lekin lagata hai hath chod diya hai,
phir se uski chal sahi hogi, chalte chalte ek subah nayi wali ayegi,
aur phir oos raat ki chandni sharma ke chip jaegi aur yeh dil, khushi se jhoom jayega

zindagi gol hai

Duniya ki tarah zindagi bhi gol hai,

har pal usi mukam ke paas le kar chal deti hai,

keh diya hai usko ki seedha jana hai,

phir bhi mudh kar wahi le jati hai,

Question or an answer. My poetry for hope

I think I may be a poet, the day I realized that It was a mixed bag of feelings. The existence of a poet is often marked by nothingness then again, a poet writes for himself and for those who want a look at his soul.

For all those who share my soul. This is a poem I have submitted to a festival, where perhaps I may get an opportunity to creep out of the nothingness and into light. Please do vote if you find these words worthwhile.

http://bit.ly/1rPBy3s

When will we get it right !

I have never been in love with writing than I ma today, hope it reaches the hearts of those souls out there one day.

https://qpeka.com/article/when-will-we-get-it-right/53ebb36c0cf2056dd19bbc19/description

kuch lafaz aise bhi

raat ki salwathon main kal ka suraj dekha,
har pal ddobti asha main naseeb ki ahat ka intezar kiya,
ruki huyi saans ko mehak ka wasta diya,
dard ki pehel ko mohabat ki dua di,
khabon ki mnat mangi,
jag gaye tab tooti hui palkon main insaaf managa,
aj ji zarrorat main kal ko dooba diya,

The end of Time

This new job keeps me pretty busy,  and I hate writing when I am exhausted but today somewhere deep down, something turned and twisted and I couldn't shrug it away, here is an attempt to give it voice though I have no idea what it want to say.

Today again I came at you door,
I knocked knowing that you would open,
there was someone that came at once,
but it wasnt you for sure but had your resemblance,
I waited thinking what should I do,
It was mostly you,
but something did not seem right in that moment,
it did not feel right with you.
The easy thing to do was to say hi,
then pretend that nothing was wrong,
what you see is the truth everybody says feeling are just hoogwash.
That moment I stood and smiled at you,
you did not greet me with a a smile,
at that moment I turned around and walked for it was just for your smile that I had crossed the end of time.

The answer

https://www.qpeka.com/discover/poem/5351500b0cf219bb98c5c653

For me faith has evolved considerably, from being a atheist to witnessing the magic of faith it ahs beena  long journey. Yet today I grapple with the question of my spirituality, I dont like the concept of religion. I continue to find answers, to  a reality that's much more than names and rituals, but true wisdom.

My First credit as a Writer :P

My first credit as a writer, the feeling is something which shall walk with me forever. One always wants appreciation from another, along with the love of my readers who take the effort to read my rants here these people have offered to publish my thoughts too !

https://www.facebook.com/lituminati

Night Turns to day

The struggle to be happy is such heavy work, rather its our whole journey in this life as we know it.

https://www.qpeka.com/library/poem/5339bb620cf2cde74dfc23e6

Relationship really ?

Relationships can be very funny or rather very time consuming, the one thing I have learned over the years is that your personal life is a shit load of work. The one part of your life which you take for granted is perhaps the most time consuming and painful.

The work dynamic more or less never changes you get good at something and then you are at it, even if you begin to work on a skill set that's new it has a learning curve which you run in a fixed time and then its smooth sailing, its a given that the boss or the client is a jackass and you make your peace with it.

cut to your personal life, its a bloody minefield the terrain of the bloody rain forest must not be so diverse in its flora and fauna. Here you just finish mastering the art of somewhat figuring out what is north and what is south and then you get up one day to realize that the south does not exist at all. Now how do u start navigating when you dont know where to start or where to go.

Boss age can really fuck you up and nobody tells you that it grows on you so fast it may be ten years but they pass u by in a bloody second and suddenly you are not what you thought you were what the hell are you expecting from the poor person in front of you.

Then we start climbing the mountain again. Ground zero again ! In a world which is running you are running with it. The world out there is engraved in your DNA you are on auto-drive,  what is not part of your DNA is the whole act of sharing, understanding, caring, walking with another you need to focus on that because that is what you need to learn and program that needs more effort, work, input and attention.

Today a job is found and sustained a relationship or a marriage nope ! love is a very difficult skill to learn and even more difficult to apply in this fast, fucked up life  

Vote for ?

It has always irritated me that more than often the media creates a circus out of elections. There si no clear communication forget simple. Every journalist exhibits his indepth knowledge with complex tables and even more complex dissertations. Boss why dont u talk simple and sense something that me will understand.
Here is simple and me combined with a table of numbers which is very easy to undesrtand.

https://www.qpeka.com/article/531ab6980cf2f4f345229342

Love arrives

https://www.qpeka.com/library/poem/53090caa0cf2b274fc3d8d00

This August my love will complete 15 years. I still remember the  first day I saw him. The few years post that were a whirlwind of emotions. The good bad and the ugly. Today wile watching a movie about young love ( Marathi movie timepass ) we lived that life again when being stupid was so lovely and a a twenty rupees dosa brought much more happiness than the three thousand buffet that we may eat today,
love arrives and the moment of that arrival live s with u for life.

Love me now

Well personally I think I am terrible at the whole concept of love. I may think that I have some grasp of it but more often than not I come up feeling like a complete failure. Love at least of the romantic kind. Its easy to love as a daughter, sister or a friend but the mushy kind is bloody very difficult. Therefore I usually don't, but this valentines day I attempted once again to pen something that is supposed to be defined as a romantic poem.
https://qpeka.com/library/poem/52fe22b00cf2876d0c0b8798