Kal Ki Dahleez pe

एक नयी  शयम का नयासवेरा।
इस वक़्त की सचाई और आनेवाले कल की हक़ीक़त।
कुछ घण्टों मैं आज और कल एक लम्हे समृबारु होंगे।
एक शन मैं पिछला मिट जायेगा।
कल सिर्फ आस होगा ।
इस हक़ीक़त का हम जश्न मानते है
उस खुद्दा को कयनाद का वास्ता देते है।
की कल का नया दिन आज का दद्र्द मिटा दे और  ख़ुशी के कुछ गिरी हुई पंखुलिया
आमीन केह  कर छीपा दे. 

Yes I am a believer but not a Christian

Conversion and faith have nothing to do with each other this fact is known by every man of god. Faith is about finding the path to eternal peace and conversion is the path to a consolidated vote bank.

History leaves a trail of blood where religion has always been manipulated by custodians to win the seat of ultimate power. Those were the dark ages when the cloak of the unknown forced you to hold on to the embers of faith which was marauded by beings to create a deceiving entity called religion.

The  inquisition and the crusade were events in history where ignorance was used and abused in the name of  god an entity who was not seen or heard. Man is an intelligent being and finally years later one man fought against the tyranny and politics, he fought to release god out of the shackles of men and his protest led to a new identity the protestants who demanded that faith was not bound with dos and dont's god was free for all. Jesus was born a Jew and he died a Jew, he was the living truth that man with all his weaknesses could live a life of compassion, love and forgiveness.  

These protestants today form some of the most fanatic sects who shackle god in their mirage of dogma where their truth is the only truth and  there is no place for any other. The bible talks only about the truth, god says that I was I am and I will be. He wants you to be enlightened and educated and have the ability to understand his eternity. Caging him in reflections of human sense cannot do justice to his existence. 

Om is " Adi Anadi " without beginning or the end and embracing all that exists. The vedas do not describe the 330 million hindu gods which currently exist in hindu culture

Ekam Brahm, dvitiya naste neh na naste kinchna - There is only one god, not the second; not at all, not in the least bit - From Brahamasutra

"God is love" [Allahu muhibba] this is the very foundation of Islam the cornerstone of a religion which defines goodness and good deeds as the identity of their faith.

A true man of god knows the essence of faith which stands on love, forgiveness and respect. The fight for salvation which each book talks about is the fight with your inner demons. A truth conveniently forgotten and falsely interpreted.

God is your father, Mother, Mentor a belief which is standard in all religions. If that is the truth then in his great knowledge if he talks to his children in the language they understand, then who are we to say say that your parent is better than mine. He is one, the language he uses to talk to his children is different.

The increasing epidemic of Rape and Legislative reality

The world around me is changing, a society is fast waltzing down the path that leads you to the stone age and we have no other option but to wait and watch, We have a new party in power and one of the reasons that it finds itself seated at the helm is because we as a nation were fed up of living in fear as a woman or for our women.

Conviction rates in rape  have been swinging between 24 and 26 percent for the last few years. The percentages are a horrendous as the crime itself.  Progress has been tom tommed and the most important man in India poses with other important men of the world exhibiting to the nations the strength of young dynamic India. A great sight, we as a nation hope that the promises and hope that reflects in the form of legislation is not just a carrot to a starving nation but a road map that leads to the reality of a basic right such as safety

The Girls and Women (Prevention of Beastly and Barbarous Brutality, Rape, Teasing, Molestation, Stripping and Other Atrocities) Bill, 2013.     

The bill has been introduced in parliament on the seventh of July 2014 

it states that whoever,—

(a) commits beastly and barbarous brutality on a girl or woman, as the case

may be, shall be punished with death:

Provided that if the accused opts for voluntary surgical castration and pleads

before the trial court to reduce his sentence the trial court may reduce the sentence

to life imprisonment to remain in jail custody till the end of his life and no remission

shall be granted by the appropriate Government or any authority to such convict;

We are going in a tizzy demanding cabs to be banned because the man who raped a woman was a cab driver. Does that guarantee that another taxi driver will not ? The fact that a bill like this is tabled in parliament is great, The question is why has it not been passed yet ? 

Conviction for rape is complicated and jumps through a lot of hoops the maximum extent of penalty is twenty years or life. Does rape have to be life threatening and violent to warrent the death penalty isnt the fact enough that A MAN HAS RAPED A WOMAN enough.

Changing thought in society will take time till then fear needs to be instilled in men the fear of death and losing their manhood. It is only then perhaps  women in India will be able to live a life free from the ever present fear of rape and the trauma that they will have to suffer for life.

I wrote a book

Have been getting letters of regret my book is not interesting enough maybe. I though I would be devastated but surprisingly I am not. I wrote a book. Though I dont think I have it in me like all those prolific  writers out there who keep on writing one volume after the other. There is a sense of achievement and amazement which I shall carry to my grave. That perhaps is the magic of being a writer. At the end of it all, often you read what you write and wonder from where did the enchantment flow, how did they come together in that magic array. 

shayad.....

Kabhi itni shikayat nahin ki hogi,
jitni aj kar rahi hoon,
shyam ki thartharahat aur subah ki chipi hui chandni aj pehli baar dil
ko choo nahin payi,
Chalte chalte kahin galat mod pe chal di,
jo sahi lag raha tha achanak galat sidh hua hai,
peeche mud jaye ya phir sadak age chalke sahi disha pe le jayegi,
zindagi chal rahi hai, lekin lagata hai hath chod diya hai,
phir se uski chal sahi hogi, chalte chalte ek subah nayi wali ayegi,
aur phir oos raat ki chandni sharma ke chip jaegi aur yeh dil, khushi se jhoom jayega

zindagi gol hai

Duniya ki tarah zindagi bhi gol hai,

har pal usi mukam ke paas le kar chal deti hai,

keh diya hai usko ki seedha jana hai,

phir bhi mudh kar wahi le jati hai,

Question or an answer. My poetry for hope

I think I may be a poet, the day I realized that It was a mixed bag of feelings. The existence of a poet is often marked by nothingness then again, a poet writes for himself and for those who want a look at his soul.

For all those who share my soul. This is a poem I have submitted to a festival, where perhaps I may get an opportunity to creep out of the nothingness and into light. Please do vote if you find these words worthwhile.

http://bit.ly/1rPBy3s

When will we get it right !

I have never been in love with writing than I ma today, hope it reaches the hearts of those souls out there one day.

https://qpeka.com/article/when-will-we-get-it-right/53ebb36c0cf2056dd19bbc19/description

kuch lafaz aise bhi

raat ki salwathon main kal ka suraj dekha,
har pal ddobti asha main naseeb ki ahat ka intezar kiya,
ruki huyi saans ko mehak ka wasta diya,
dard ki pehel ko mohabat ki dua di,
khabon ki mnat mangi,
jag gaye tab tooti hui palkon main insaaf managa,
aj ji zarrorat main kal ko dooba diya,

The end of Time

This new job keeps me pretty busy,  and I hate writing when I am exhausted but today somewhere deep down, something turned and twisted and I couldn't shrug it away, here is an attempt to give it voice though I have no idea what it want to say.

Today again I came at you door,
I knocked knowing that you would open,
there was someone that came at once,
but it wasnt you for sure but had your resemblance,
I waited thinking what should I do,
It was mostly you,
but something did not seem right in that moment,
it did not feel right with you.
The easy thing to do was to say hi,
then pretend that nothing was wrong,
what you see is the truth everybody says feeling are just hoogwash.
That moment I stood and smiled at you,
you did not greet me with a a smile,
at that moment I turned around and walked for it was just for your smile that I had crossed the end of time.

The answer

https://www.qpeka.com/discover/poem/5351500b0cf219bb98c5c653

For me faith has evolved considerably, from being a atheist to witnessing the magic of faith it ahs beena  long journey. Yet today I grapple with the question of my spirituality, I dont like the concept of religion. I continue to find answers, to  a reality that's much more than names and rituals, but true wisdom.

My First credit as a Writer :P

My first credit as a writer, the feeling is something which shall walk with me forever. One always wants appreciation from another, along with the love of my readers who take the effort to read my rants here these people have offered to publish my thoughts too !

https://www.facebook.com/lituminati

Night Turns to day

The struggle to be happy is such heavy work, rather its our whole journey in this life as we know it.

https://www.qpeka.com/library/poem/5339bb620cf2cde74dfc23e6

Relationship really ?

Relationships can be very funny or rather very time consuming, the one thing I have learned over the years is that your personal life is a shit load of work. The one part of your life which you take for granted is perhaps the most time consuming and painful.

The work dynamic more or less never changes you get good at something and then you are at it, even if you begin to work on a skill set that's new it has a learning curve which you run in a fixed time and then its smooth sailing, its a given that the boss or the client is a jackass and you make your peace with it.

cut to your personal life, its a bloody minefield the terrain of the bloody rain forest must not be so diverse in its flora and fauna. Here you just finish mastering the art of somewhat figuring out what is north and what is south and then you get up one day to realize that the south does not exist at all. Now how do u start navigating when you dont know where to start or where to go.

Boss age can really fuck you up and nobody tells you that it grows on you so fast it may be ten years but they pass u by in a bloody second and suddenly you are not what you thought you were what the hell are you expecting from the poor person in front of you.

Then we start climbing the mountain again. Ground zero again ! In a world which is running you are running with it. The world out there is engraved in your DNA you are on auto-drive,  what is not part of your DNA is the whole act of sharing, understanding, caring, walking with another you need to focus on that because that is what you need to learn and program that needs more effort, work, input and attention.

Today a job is found and sustained a relationship or a marriage nope ! love is a very difficult skill to learn and even more difficult to apply in this fast, fucked up life  

Vote for ?

It has always irritated me that more than often the media creates a circus out of elections. There si no clear communication forget simple. Every journalist exhibits his indepth knowledge with complex tables and even more complex dissertations. Boss why dont u talk simple and sense something that me will understand.
Here is simple and me combined with a table of numbers which is very easy to undesrtand.

https://www.qpeka.com/article/531ab6980cf2f4f345229342

Love arrives

https://www.qpeka.com/library/poem/53090caa0cf2b274fc3d8d00

This August my love will complete 15 years. I still remember the  first day I saw him. The few years post that were a whirlwind of emotions. The good bad and the ugly. Today wile watching a movie about young love ( Marathi movie timepass ) we lived that life again when being stupid was so lovely and a a twenty rupees dosa brought much more happiness than the three thousand buffet that we may eat today,
love arrives and the moment of that arrival live s with u for life.

Love me now

Well personally I think I am terrible at the whole concept of love. I may think that I have some grasp of it but more often than not I come up feeling like a complete failure. Love at least of the romantic kind. Its easy to love as a daughter, sister or a friend but the mushy kind is bloody very difficult. Therefore I usually don't, but this valentines day I attempted once again to pen something that is supposed to be defined as a romantic poem.
https://qpeka.com/library/poem/52fe22b00cf2876d0c0b8798

Right versus Wrong

Turmoil is never a good thing, though something always emerges from its belly. The good or the bad is often depended on you. Its an effort to churn in a direction which takes you to the definitions of the worldly good.
Its an effort and at the end of it you are tired and waste.
what you have before you is the sum total and even though it sits right with your conscience it brings you no happiness. They say that dilemma makes the man, because what you choose you become. Whether you want to be that person in the first place is a big question. Good is a burden and it drags you with it as you peel yourself in the process. There is peace at offer but who is to say that the slugs of wealth and deceit don't have peace as they sleep in the palaces of excess.
your peace is your definition and nobody is to say that you are wrong or right. We slaughter and torture animals for our food. When humans slaughter each other its barbaric and undigested, then again no species attacks its own for no reason except survival. we maybe the only species who does it for progress. This is not the rule of the jungle, its rules are fair and we don't play fair.
Every time we have been set lose we have created nothing but destruction painful upheaval one cat has tried to destroy the whole herd. We are worst than animals they believe in survival, we don't believe in any such thing, because our I is insane.
Maybe that is the fact we are a faulty product, god went wrong and is now stuck keeping an eye on this creation which comes back to life like cockroaches every time he tries to make it extinct.
Our religion is again our ultimate ego, us telling ourselves that god made us in his image and we are born to rule.

Aj

I dont know what to write today, there is so much I want to say and share but somehow its just a jumble.

for today these few words are all I have. Hope words find me soon.

http://www.qpeka.com/poem/52f9f4660cf2c77901b4da52#

POEM CODE

This poem is a lyrical bend to my thoughts on our existence as a predicted species which I voiced in CODE

http://www.qpeka.com/library/poem/52f4ce670cf2f0414f206146

Me a writer ?

These past three years have made me question my very existence, which is as any other person defined by the profession one belongs to. I have searched and searched and somehow the answer has evaded me, there seems to be no need for what I bring to a professional table. I have done then what I know best write. With this poem I hope to begin a journey. Do not know whether it has a destination.
But it would mean a lot if you could share this journey with me as you have till now. Do read what I have to share with you.

http://qpeka.com/library/poem/52ef78f20cf2f0414f206033

We are code

I like the unpredictability of life. You expect some great miracle but then you settle for the puzzle being solved in the end. Your whole life seems to get over in this waiting and finding. I refuse to just wait. Every moment is living for me, there is this inane satisfaction also in doing nothing.
then comes the fear whether this is self destructing. You are not made to do nothing, it leads to decay. Am I doing enough, who defines that for me. Will I do anything again for any one again. There  ! and I thought that I am supposed to celebrate nothingness. Well I surely can try. Resigning myself to hundred questions has not got me any where have tried that, everybody does. Being a good human being is a tough job. The question is are you one in the first place and who defines that for you.
I hate definitions of  any kind, they are too constrictive. I like my freedom, often wonder are we free in the first place there are six personality types in the world we are made in repetition, I cant break the code. I have to follow it, what i feel and what I do is pre determined by that code. Am sure he finds our struggle pretty amusing. 

Are you happy

I have to check myself every time I begin writing on a blank page. It always begins with " Its amazing ". That is what life means to me. In a world that increasingly becomes insecure with every growing want, my world still revolves around the pani puri at the corner of the street. Isnt life that simple. Apparently its not, its very complex, this I dont understand I have tried to, life gets better with money thats what I have been  told with every medium out there that can communicate to you.  

Happiness, I was happy before and I did not have money, I had people. The book says that every era goes through a life cycle of birth, growth and death. We are in the era where this world is dying the kalyug. 

Why are we like this, why is there so much selfishness, why cant we see anything beyond what we want what we need what we have and what we have not.

We dont need love anymore, we need that expensive car, we need to be sexually satisfied, we need

power over another we need those expensive clothes, we need that vacation in Ireland. I dont understand this it is complex for me. I don't see you happy. You need all this to be happy right. What are you ? 

why r you a rapist, why are you a swindler, why are you a abuser ? why are you a selfish human being.

 Are you happy ?